Why am I shy?

I know that there are lots of people out there that keep their thoughts to themselves, but was I doing it way to much. Its not like nobodys ever told me to speak up all my friends and family say that to me all the time I just wish I had the balls to do it but I just cant, like whenever i see my crush in the hallway I tell myself "go talk to him ask him how his day is." but at the last minute I just say to myself "noooo." why wasnt I born active like my brother, if I was born active I would have had a boyfriend right now, but I dont because apparently I didnt ask a guy out. are people really born shy or are they shy by choice

Are saturdays good or bad

I was told to hang the laundry and when i got to the laundry room my parents were fighting i didnt know what the fight was about and i didnt know if i wanted to know or not but the main point is that my parents didnt notice that i was there it was either they didnt notice me or they wanted me to hear them fightinf with each other. Sometimes ive always wondered if my parents didnt notice me just like everyone else or maybe they didnt notice me because I always stay in the dark so much that I didnt notice that people are noticing me?

good morning, or bad morning

mornings are always supposed to be good, you get up at 7, go downstairs, eat breakfast and talk to your family about what your gonna do today, but my morning didn't even begin woth a hello instead the only thing that I had listen to was my parents fighting what most adults talk about, taxes. I've always wondered why everything has to include money i mean what we get seriously hurt or ill and the hospital bills us but we don't know how to pay it. my little brother was in the corner chanting "find you happy place, find your happy place." i couldnt stand seeing my sweet little brother suffer i decided it was time to stand up for the person that i care about more than anything i marched right into the kitchen yelled at my parents "just stop it you guys just stop freakin fighting Reynols in the corner covering his ears from the fight so just stop it just stop it!" that was the first time ive ever burst out like that and it felt scary. that was when i decided to write this blog so i can write down what i couldnt say.